
N ow is the time to take stock, to
E valuate choices made—to right
W rongs, to plan a way forward that
Y earns to see others needs as
E ven more important than the
A ll-consuming passions of the
Regenerated but repenting self.
L onely . . . in this time
O f increasing unbelief, looking frantically, hungering,
N ot for miracles, but for signposts that used to be so faith-clear, undisputed—
E ver-present testament, truth, surety,
L ooking for sanctuary, and I guess . . . just lonely for
Y ou.
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“Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you.
Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.”
~John 14:27
O h, no, the dreaded
M onster virus has found our house.
I thought with a
C hange of address, the covid demon would
R un in circles, confused as to where we would end up, but
O bviously, its tracking system was pretty good, and it has
N ailed my husband here in Texas!
L-ife is to be lived with love as our mandate; but too often,
I-maginations are soiled with the cares and constraints of bolstering up this
M-ansion here, rather than the one
P-prepared for us. Wishing to stay and wishing to go
I-s for those closest to heaven’s door and
N-ot for those distracted with position and purpose,
G-rounded, it seems, in earthly things. And we wound each other with
C-areless words; and we
H-arm the weak and disarm the strong, without
U-nderstanding we are servants one of another, chosen not by destiny but
R-edeemed and uniquely
C-hosen by Christ. He is the One we serve—not ourselves—with grace and
H-umility, forgiving one another, seeking each one’s best.
T-herefore, as God’s people, let us clothe ourselves with compassion; let peace
R-ule our hearts, forgiving all grievances, responding
I-n love as Christ has loved us,
U-nfettered by ambition and pride and blind passion.
M-aster of all, Lord of Your church, it would seem our faith
P-aralysis is not a reflection of You but our
H-alf-hearted devotion, our crippling sins.
A-rise in our hearts; revive your chosen ones that we might
N-ot be so earthbound, but set our hearts on
T-hings above. This is my broken prayer.
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Colossians 3
Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. 2 Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. 3 For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. 4 When Christ, who is your life, appears, then you also will appear with him in glory.
5 Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature: sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed, which is idolatry. 6 Because of these, the wrath of God is coming. 7 You used to walk in these ways, in the life you once lived. 8 But now you must also rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips.
9 Do not lie to each other, since you have taken off your old self with its practices 10 and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge in the image of its Creator. 11 Here there is no Gentile or Jew, circumcised or uncircumcised, barbarian, Scythian, slave or free, but Christ is all, and is in all.
12 Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. 13 Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.
14 And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.
15 Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful. 16 Let the message of Christ dwell among you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom through psalms, hymns, and songs from the Spirit, singing to God with gratitude in your hearts. 17 And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.
P erson, public—often at odds—
E ntering monologues and dialogues full of
A ccusation and assessment—sometimes brutal and quite often blind—
C alling for change and definitive answers that cannot
E xist except that we lay down our swords, beating them back into plowshares.
S wallowing hard, trying not to
H ear the undercurrent of your
A dvice as criticism, trying hard to
L ook past the words to the heart’s
L onging for belonging and
O pen communication in this abundance of
W ords.
Sensing the need to feel
Important, –> that thoughts, actions, and
Gifts really matter, not just in the big scheme of things,
Not just ticks on nature’s timepiece,
Intertwined with myriad others, who
Fashion a purposeful life, a fanciful life, going somewhere–>
It is inbuilt, this need to belong, this feeling that
Creation matters, that we matter,
And that I as one lone voice matter,
Not just as a cog in a
Cosmic wheel–> but as imagio deo–
Everlasting because He has given me significance.
O kay, I can’t live like this–all this tweeting, and FBing, and
V blogging, as if I need to know
E very single inconsequential thing about your daily
R ituals, what you’re selling, what you’re pushing.
W hat I need is quiet–physical and mental–a
H iatus from personal and political rants and
E nd-of-the-world diatribes. If the world is
L ost, then let me at the very least live
M y last brief moments
E njoying the illusion that people really
D o love and respect each other–at least now and then.
S omething stinks, and the decay
C omes creeping, creeping, over Facebook and
E mail and Twitter—whatever. And I would have
N ever thought the divide so wide, the pit so deep, and
T he resolution and mending so impossiblly far off.